Imiss u or???

I wonder if i really do miss u?
or do i miss the feelings u brought upon me?
the way my heart turned from worrying to peace and happiness whenever i was with u..
or how i felt calm and playful whenever u embraced me.
i know these words are all shocks hitting you, since i was a statue whenever i met you.
yet still i wonder do i really miss you?
that golden-brown glowing skin!
abs that'll make women forget the boundries they swore they wouldn't cross tonight!
and your face? captivating does not even begin to describe!
Your eyes? they soften me into u! how can i ever be mad or angry at you!
i call them puppy eyes, I cant help but have love for you when I stare into those eyes...
Your hugs gave me effort - to forgive and let go of that other awful soul thats now in my past!
still i wonder do i miss you? or do i miss how important and cared about you made me feel?
And how you helped me stop hurting!
And all those late nights walking with you right by my side
the feeling of being claimed by you! A guy so sweet, understanding and very sensitive!
or do i miss the late night talks i had the opportunity to have at nights?
i think i've figured it out: i really do miss you but i also miss those feelings you introduced me to...
Frightfully, you let go and hit me with the blow..
Something that belonged to me, followed you when i heard the word goodbye!
It doesnt matter much tho- I will be back for you! Just gotta think of a plot!

BY: Reneelma G. Langdon.... inspired by the sweetest candy i've found so far :)

Back then, life was sweet!

I really miss preschool & kindergarten those days in Grenada, going on trips every friday!
whether it rained whether it shined we went on a bus trip!
Sometimes to the waterfalls, sometimes to the lakes, sometimes to the beaches and other times to some place historic!
My favorite trip was to visit the distillery in river antoine because on that trip we got a lot for the price of one:
we'd go to the rum disitllery, then we'd head up the hill to lake antoine, then back down where we'd have lunch on bathway beach, all 3 right near by.. who doesnt like three for the price of one?
I really miss being 10...what problems could i say i had then?
got my little allowance everyday before i left for school.
but what did i need money to buy back then? junk food while taking that long walk home after school?
So money wasnt one of my problems at 10 ..
and people didnt matter much back then the only thing i know is that there were a lot of them there, and i loved most of them... thats it!!!
didnt care what they did, what they wanted, or why they was there!
i wasnt wondering what do they want from me, are they here to use me? maybe they're trying to manipulate me?
i didnt think about all of this while being a kid...
i was carefree and too busy playing, having fun.. all i cared about was me!
when it was time to play i wanted to play,
time to eat i went to eat!
time to go to school, i went without a problem and even cried on the days when i was too sick to attend (then high school came along and school just became another thing i had to go thru even though i hated it with a passion),
when the boring sundays came by and the macaroni pie , baked chicken, and cole slaw was still being prepared? the passionfuit to make that tasty juice was still not picked from the tree?
i wanted to head to the beach right behind me until my sunday lunch was ready and thats exactly what i'd do!
By the time I came from the beach man was i hungry, and best of all my lunch was ready!
yall already know how the beach makes us hungry!
as a kid we're selfish, untroubled and at ease!
maybe we shouldnt outgrow all of it!!!
i wonder what has happened since then?
because back then life was sweet!!!!!! :)

By: Reneelma G.Langdon 04/13/2010

Sometimes it hurts to love someone

  Yes it does.. but i made it thru ... :

Sometimes it hurts to love someone
so much that it feels like theres no reason to keep fighting on,
I can feel my heart cracking more and more everyday
as I try to keep the love we once shared.
sometimes it hurts to even laugh!
feels like the rain keeps on falling without giving the sun a chance to shine!
its drowning me, i'm lost somewhere...
can only be found by the one who caused the hurt and fears!!
Something meant to be so wonderful to me
to watch LOVE grow inside of me,
and to feel my heart pump feelings I've never felt!
suddenly LOVE's destroying me!
sometimes it hurts to love so bad!
when I know I've given it my all
My last strength,
now I'm loosing my last breath!!!
true love has no hiding place
its not something you just put away,
it always live inside of you
reminding me of where i really need to be
who I cant live my life without,
the only one who can make me shed tears, the only one who's pain I feel
sometimes it hurts to love so bad..... yes
sometimes it hurts to love someone.....

By: Reneelma G.Langdon <3

FACING THE CONEQUENCES

Something written way back then..... i was going thru it- this is how it felt:






Exactly what I tried preventing…….

If it was still those times, those times when we meant something to each other,

We could have never passed each other straight….

How did it come to this?

You saw me yesterday,

We just went our separate ways,

Didn’t blink once to turn and look your way

I was with my boo you was with your crew

Saw you from the corner of my eyes staring my way

Could almost hear your heart pumping as you kept staring at me

Could feel the connection we use to have flaming up again,

Still with my back to you,

Our feelings are so strong I can read your silly mind

Why did I let her get away, why did I treat her that way,

Had so many chances but you let them pass by

Waisted those minutes and waisted those times

Left my heart waiting, had me keep my hopes up,

Now your wishing I wouldn’t act so cold to you, if only I would pay you jus one moment of attention

But that’s impossible to do when I waisted millions of seconds on you,

When my whole heart was available to you,

But you broke it into pieces, pieces that can never be replaced.

As I walk away turning to look your way,

Your eyes met my eyes and sees the pain you left there

Your heart feels the pain, why did you hurt her this awful way

Your heart, Shattered into tiny pieces by a decision you once stupidly made,

It hurts to see what it has come too

But I have no sympathy for you

Because a while back, you had none what so ever for me.

You took me, walked all over me and acted like you was never really into me

Hate that we don’t even talk anymore, but isn’t that the way you wanted it?

Just know that I was once yours, I was at your door steps for a long while, but I was rejected…..

You thought you could always use me. Until you saw that I was paying you no mind anymore,

Sorry to say that we really missed out on each other, I know you miss me and yes I still do miss you!!!!!!!!!

It just would never be the same between me and you!!!!!!!!



By: Reneelma G. Langdon